APOLOGIZE...

EMO, tat is the only thing i can say...
SORRY, for not standing on your perspective to think the problem....
I had to admit that on that time,
i really truely hurt by wat u all said....
After mei yi talk to me tat recess,
only that i realise i didnt stand on your perspective to think of it...

pepper water....
tats a way u show to me tat u wan me to be silence...
Sorry for being stupid tat time,
tat i cant catch ur MYSTERIOUS Message in it....

If i apologize to u now,
could it be too late???
U have rights to accept it, or denied,
until u think of forgiving me.....

EJ: sorry..... i noe u are the one who suffering much....
thanks for borrowing me the accessories tat i needed for sketch.
Actually, i din angry at u at all... ^_^
I still plan to go to ur house on saturday and talk to you.....
and even playing in ur house..... Just then u bring the dress to school,
so i need not to go ur house....

KY: sorry to u too..... and thanks for borrowing me ur book...
The anger in me disappear when i found ur sivik book on my table...
I tot u already forgot about it...... Haiz.... Disappointed in me??
I also disappointed in myself...... Cant change my hot temper at all...
I still tot i had change at least three percent of it, looks like i had fail again,
DIDNT I???

KL:Well, i say i will shut up for three days..... and friday was the last....
U noe wat, i say i wont talk, not cant write.....
and i Still Think of disturbing u all by writing in paper,
Just den only i noe u all take it serious....
and tell u the truth, i really cant find a stairs to go down from the stage,
MY is right..... MUKA TEMBOK???? Sorry.....

Hope u all can read this.... SORRY for all of u..... MY, thanks.... hahaha
hope u can see dis b4 u fly to singapore.....

feelings......

Disappointed...
On the second i step into the classroom,
only den i realise how much i wanted a 'hi' from u all....
When i heard u all chit chatting and laughing out loud,
i felt like there were thousands of spear pricking my heart.....
I don noe how many times i tried to control my outbursting tears,
and tried to pretend i am fine in front of the others.....
I tried to kept my mind busy,
so that i wont pay attention to any of you......

" A circle has no end "
and i would thought that frenship will never ends too...
But till now the situations made it clear that,
everything has an end for it.....

"Friendship is a ship that wont sink"
yes, because it doesnt travel on water!!!!
it is a ship tat can bring wounds to ur heart.....
although there was some sweet memories in it....

' I don think i can ever stand it if i get hurt from another fren again....'
I had told this to a fren before....
does she still remembering it???
Or i didnt mention it clearly????

heart bleeding.............

Hopes.........

I tried very hard to learn from mistake,
not just my mistakes, but also from the surroundings....
I think very hard when solving a problem,
so tat i wont hurt anyone at all.....
May be tat is why i got many white hair..... I think.....
White hair is good, because although it makes me look old,
but it successfully fascinate my friend......(KY and YJ and KL)

But then, i realise one thing, i think i got short term memory lost....
i can say one thing in a second and simply continue it with another different story.....
And since tat, i decide to start on a diary.....
I wanted to write down everything, every memories, and every thoughts i have now.
so tat when i grown up, it can be the best recorder of my memory.....

May be it was not important for my future,
But at least i can read it and get to know myself more clearly....
I decide to buy it tomorrow, no matter how much it cost......
But i wonder which language i should use when writing it.....
Haiz.....

I really hope tat i can do better than the other people.....
No one is perfect, and of course i am not trying to be one of it.....
I just wanted to remind myself of every thing i have done,
every thing i have heard, and every thought i have before....

I know some of my frens will think tat i too 严格to myself,
but i just want myself to do better each day...
May be they will think tat i shouldn't compete in every subject on how i score,
but i would like to let them know tat in my dictionary,
' THERE'S NO IMPROVEMENT IF THERE'S NO COMPETITION....'
and don't forget tat, i am used to born and grow up in this kind of family.....