Sometimes hard, sometimes easy,
it's like playing with a mystery.
Might be correct, Might be wrong,
all we can do is sing a song....
I love it, U love it,
but sometimes no one can solve it.
Try harder, don't give up,
hope tat next time WE DID IT!!!
Thursday, July 30, 2009
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
Mom, can you please listen to me????
' When i was just a little girl, i ask my mother wat would i be...
will i be pretty, will i be rich, tats what she say to me...
hey sarah sarah, what ever will be, will be...
the future not us to see....
hey sarah sarah... wat will be will be....'
Still remember this nursery rhyme?
Yes, OF COURSE!!!!
On tuesday, my english teacher ask us about my ambition....
I took ten minutes to decide, What i wanna be.....
When i was young, my ambition is to be a lawyer, teacher, accountant and businesswoman...
But now??? NOTHING!!!!
I was born in a moderate family, own a elder sister and elder brother....
I always tell my fren tat i don need to worry about my future since my parents had planned for us (me and my other siblings) sistematically.....
But i was WRONG, ABSOLUTELY WRONG!!!!
I thought tat after SPM, i can choose a field to study on and work on it.
I told my sister about my thought and she said tat i was wrong....
She said tat we don have the freedom to choose our career if our ambition didn't get our parents recognition.....
Tat means my ambition to be a lawyer, teacher, businesswoman and accountant, IS HOPELESS.....
Since tat, i don have a specific ambition to work on....
I was so afraid tat my ambition did not get my parents recognition.....
I don't wan to lie to others about my FAKE ambition again....
When my tuition aunty ask me about it, i told her tat i still haven has an ambition....
She was shock!!!
A girl who can gain good results, with her brother and sister studying chemical engineering and actuarist HAD NO AMBITION!!!
So i tell her the truth tat my ambition always cant get my parents recognition and i am afraid to keep on changing on it....
I even go to our school counselling to ask opinion from a counselling teacher.....
She said that i am a girl who likes to investigate, who likes arts too...(well, i donno how to draw)
So she ask me to find careers which suits me.....
Later then, i list out three ambitions...
1- psycologist/ psychiatrist
2- forensic scientist
3- dresser(someone who dress up people)
I really really hope i can achieve my ambition one day.....
Mom, please allow me to choose my own way to ....
Let me decide my own future.....
will i be pretty, will i be rich, tats what she say to me...
hey sarah sarah, what ever will be, will be...
the future not us to see....
hey sarah sarah... wat will be will be....'
Still remember this nursery rhyme?
Yes, OF COURSE!!!!
On tuesday, my english teacher ask us about my ambition....
I took ten minutes to decide, What i wanna be.....
When i was young, my ambition is to be a lawyer, teacher, accountant and businesswoman...
But now??? NOTHING!!!!
I was born in a moderate family, own a elder sister and elder brother....
I always tell my fren tat i don need to worry about my future since my parents had planned for us (me and my other siblings) sistematically.....
But i was WRONG, ABSOLUTELY WRONG!!!!
I thought tat after SPM, i can choose a field to study on and work on it.
I told my sister about my thought and she said tat i was wrong....
She said tat we don have the freedom to choose our career if our ambition didn't get our parents recognition.....
Tat means my ambition to be a lawyer, teacher, businesswoman and accountant, IS HOPELESS.....
Since tat, i don have a specific ambition to work on....
I was so afraid tat my ambition did not get my parents recognition.....
I don't wan to lie to others about my FAKE ambition again....
When my tuition aunty ask me about it, i told her tat i still haven has an ambition....
She was shock!!!
A girl who can gain good results, with her brother and sister studying chemical engineering and actuarist HAD NO AMBITION!!!
So i tell her the truth tat my ambition always cant get my parents recognition and i am afraid to keep on changing on it....
I even go to our school counselling to ask opinion from a counselling teacher.....
She said that i am a girl who likes to investigate, who likes arts too...(well, i donno how to draw)
So she ask me to find careers which suits me.....
Later then, i list out three ambitions...
1- psycologist/ psychiatrist
2- forensic scientist
3- dresser(someone who dress up people)
I really really hope i can achieve my ambition one day.....
Mom, please allow me to choose my own way to ....
Let me decide my own future.....
Thursday, July 9, 2009
Failure...
I have fail......
not in academic...
I've fail in life.........
Well, it is not something tat u were thinking now in ur mind.....
It was just something else.....
Yesterday i recall back some words from my fren....
It didnt hurt.... Just it was funny......
On the last day of our midyear exam, we din study because it was just sivik and pjk....
my frens and i were chatting......
Suddenly, one fren took out a ice-cream voucher and ask who wants....
den my fren saw the deadline of the voucher.... It is on the day after tomorrow...
She plan to give it to Mei yi, cause MY always go JJ ma....
Den mei yi say she usually go JJ in the morning and it was weird to eat ice cream in the morning...... It will be very Cold!!!!
den i say if Meiyi accept the voucher, one day when we go JJ, we can saw meiyi sitting there, with a pose still eating ice cream but was frozen.....
Den all my frens laugh..... They say very funny....
Suddenly meiyi say tat was the second most funny joke tat i ever had...
WAT???? In my whole life, I just had tell TWO jokes to entertain my fren???
I tot i had Always told the jokes???????
den i feel tat i really fail.... fail in telling jokes......
Haiz.... got to think of something else redi......
Everytime when i tell jokes, i am the only one who laugh out loud......
Weird right????
but then when we chatting and i suddenly BLUR something out, everyone will laugh out loud...
I think i am not suitable to say jokes.....
Maybe wit out planning, i can say a better jokes that can entertain my frens?????
hahahahaha..... Until now i am still laughing remembering the two jokes i had ever had.....
not in academic...
I've fail in life.........
Well, it is not something tat u were thinking now in ur mind.....
It was just something else.....
Yesterday i recall back some words from my fren....
It didnt hurt.... Just it was funny......
On the last day of our midyear exam, we din study because it was just sivik and pjk....
my frens and i were chatting......
Suddenly, one fren took out a ice-cream voucher and ask who wants....
den my fren saw the deadline of the voucher.... It is on the day after tomorrow...
She plan to give it to Mei yi, cause MY always go JJ ma....
Den mei yi say she usually go JJ in the morning and it was weird to eat ice cream in the morning...... It will be very Cold!!!!
den i say if Meiyi accept the voucher, one day when we go JJ, we can saw meiyi sitting there, with a pose still eating ice cream but was frozen.....
Den all my frens laugh..... They say very funny....
Suddenly meiyi say tat was the second most funny joke tat i ever had...
WAT???? In my whole life, I just had tell TWO jokes to entertain my fren???
I tot i had Always told the jokes???????
den i feel tat i really fail.... fail in telling jokes......
Haiz.... got to think of something else redi......
Everytime when i tell jokes, i am the only one who laugh out loud......
Weird right????
but then when we chatting and i suddenly BLUR something out, everyone will laugh out loud...
I think i am not suitable to say jokes.....
Maybe wit out planning, i can say a better jokes that can entertain my frens?????
hahahahaha..... Until now i am still laughing remembering the two jokes i had ever had.....
Monday, July 6, 2009
Love.......
Love......
no one can explain it,
no one can created it,
no one can disposed it.....
WE only can FEEL it by ourselves.....
Still remember when Romai doing her presentation about
'Does love haze still inflect in this modern society?',(something like that)
What i heard is the last sentence of her presentation....
' Love is not wanting a person, love is wanting a person to be happy';
' Love is not occupying a person, but love is to set them free....'
WAH!!!!! i really don noe why i like this sentence lo.....
just very weird... hahaha
My brother saw me writing this and wondering whether am i in love...
Think too much la him.....
Now, my priority is STUDY!!!
If i din study hard, i will lost everything in my life....
Lost my frens, lost my family, lost my occupation, and lost my future....
not tat i mean if i am stupid u all wont be fren wit me,
just tat if now i din study hard, can u imagine me playing wit 'those' others chinese girls??
i sure u all wont like me to be like tat....
So my priority is:
1- Study!!( if din study hard, how can i make my parents happy?)
2-Family... ( i think most of us will choose this...)
3-Friends...(don be too mean 4 wat i wrote)
Love??? Not at all.... hahahaha...
I decide to wait until i finish studying...
But sometimes i stilll wondering who will become my soulmate...
Is it the stupid Romeo?(stupid because he killed himself without checking first...)
Or could it be Titanic Jack??( sacrifice himself to save the woman he loves??)
Or at last, Edward Cullen the vampire??( THIS ONE IS COOL!!!!!)
HAHAHAHA!!! I can see Mei Yi's expression di..... If not mistaken Juin is scolding me 'siau',
or Kae leh is shaking her head, And for Kai yen, either is ' wu yan', ' wu hua ke shuo', OR THEY will be saying ' ni xiang tai duo le...'
hahahahahahha.... funny and happy to have this kind of fren....
no one can explain it,
no one can created it,
no one can disposed it.....
WE only can FEEL it by ourselves.....
Still remember when Romai doing her presentation about
'Does love haze still inflect in this modern society?',(something like that)
What i heard is the last sentence of her presentation....
' Love is not wanting a person, love is wanting a person to be happy';
' Love is not occupying a person, but love is to set them free....'
WAH!!!!! i really don noe why i like this sentence lo.....
just very weird... hahaha
My brother saw me writing this and wondering whether am i in love...
Think too much la him.....
Now, my priority is STUDY!!!
If i din study hard, i will lost everything in my life....
Lost my frens, lost my family, lost my occupation, and lost my future....
not tat i mean if i am stupid u all wont be fren wit me,
just tat if now i din study hard, can u imagine me playing wit 'those' others chinese girls??
i sure u all wont like me to be like tat....
So my priority is:
1- Study!!( if din study hard, how can i make my parents happy?)
2-Family... ( i think most of us will choose this...)
3-Friends...(don be too mean 4 wat i wrote)
Love??? Not at all.... hahahaha...
I decide to wait until i finish studying...
But sometimes i stilll wondering who will become my soulmate...
Is it the stupid Romeo?(stupid because he killed himself without checking first...)
Or could it be Titanic Jack??( sacrifice himself to save the woman he loves??)
Or at last, Edward Cullen the vampire??( THIS ONE IS COOL!!!!!)
HAHAHAHA!!! I can see Mei Yi's expression di..... If not mistaken Juin is scolding me 'siau',
or Kae leh is shaking her head, And for Kai yen, either is ' wu yan', ' wu hua ke shuo', OR THEY will be saying ' ni xiang tai duo le...'
hahahahahahha.... funny and happy to have this kind of fren....
Thursday, July 2, 2009
My heart.....
I know i am hot temper,
sometimes i hurt my fren too......
As for u, i am not mad actually...
Really, i was hurt, but not bcoz of tat......
I noe u don like 'him',
and i know sometimes i play about it too,
but in my opinion, i din think tat i had play until too over...
I noe wat u feel, or just exactly the feeling of GK disturbing me.
U all cant read mind, or test the mood in surroundings,
same to me too......
If i had hurt u all b4, here i am, begging for mercy......
But sometimes, wat u all say make me confuse!!!!
U hurt me once, the only one i think of until now is ,
u say i am smart and not suppose to be wit u all!!!!!!
This is wat i don like....
wat if i am smart???? did it makes u feel stupid???
NO!!!!
I really don noe wat to say....
If smart is wrong, den y r we chatting using computer???
I study smart bcoz this is the only gift tat my parents really wan from me....
If u wan me to teach u, i will!!!!
24 HOURS waiting 4 u.......
I noe u r KIDDING tat time, but it still sting.....
So please......
don say about it or touch this topic again.....
LET IT GO.....
I wil be the talkative girl again on monday......
If u all feel like wanna me to be.....
Just don say tat i am noisy again....
SMILE ALWAYZ, CRY NO WAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and teach me about blog... still not so pro in this....
ha..... ha.... ha...
sometimes i hurt my fren too......
As for u, i am not mad actually...
Really, i was hurt, but not bcoz of tat......
I noe u don like 'him',
and i know sometimes i play about it too,
but in my opinion, i din think tat i had play until too over...
I noe wat u feel, or just exactly the feeling of GK disturbing me.
U all cant read mind, or test the mood in surroundings,
same to me too......
If i had hurt u all b4, here i am, begging for mercy......
But sometimes, wat u all say make me confuse!!!!
U hurt me once, the only one i think of until now is ,
u say i am smart and not suppose to be wit u all!!!!!!
This is wat i don like....
wat if i am smart???? did it makes u feel stupid???
NO!!!!
I really don noe wat to say....
If smart is wrong, den y r we chatting using computer???
I study smart bcoz this is the only gift tat my parents really wan from me....
If u wan me to teach u, i will!!!!
24 HOURS waiting 4 u.......
I noe u r KIDDING tat time, but it still sting.....
So please......
don say about it or touch this topic again.....
LET IT GO.....
I wil be the talkative girl again on monday......
If u all feel like wanna me to be.....
Just don say tat i am noisy again....
SMILE ALWAYZ, CRY NO WAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and teach me about blog... still not so pro in this....
ha..... ha.... ha...
LIFE.....
Life...
From this word, we wil imagine things tat r happy,
or things tat wil happen....
But the truth is,
Life is opposite.
Life...
can be happy, can be sad....
can be good, can be bad....
can be colourful, or always in darkness.....
NO ONE IS PERFECT!!!!
tats wat i always convince myself to stop thinking of LIFE.
I noe tat very well bcoz in fact, i m not a wonderful or perfect person,
so i noe everyone wil have their weakness.....
I use to make a decision by observing the problem from every perspective,
but sometimes, there have been wrong too...
My sister use to say tat i think too much,
but did i really think too much????
No, i'm sure i am doing the right thing.....
But if it is a right thing, why there is no one supporting me???
From this word, we wil imagine things tat r happy,
or things tat wil happen....
But the truth is,
Life is opposite.
Life...
can be happy, can be sad....
can be good, can be bad....
can be colourful, or always in darkness.....
NO ONE IS PERFECT!!!!
tats wat i always convince myself to stop thinking of LIFE.
I noe tat very well bcoz in fact, i m not a wonderful or perfect person,
so i noe everyone wil have their weakness.....
I use to make a decision by observing the problem from every perspective,
but sometimes, there have been wrong too...
My sister use to say tat i think too much,
but did i really think too much????
No, i'm sure i am doing the right thing.....
But if it is a right thing, why there is no one supporting me???
Things tat i've learn from my fren!!!
Before this i really don noe y i love story books so much, i become tokoh nilam because my sister used to be one of them when she is in the school. She likes to show off the prize and i cant tahan her attitude so i swear i also must be a tokoh nilam of my school.
But after today, i realise tat there have other reasons y i love books so much!!! Books not just the thing tat give us knowledge, it can give us imagination and let us enjoy the story. It is our fren no matter when we r sad or happy, it is a true fren of us.
Altough it cant talk, but it doesnt matter. As i noe, book wont betray us. it is a good and a true fren to human. And tat is y i wil read books when i am happy or i am sad.
No matter wat happens today, i din feel angry to my frens...... It is true...... I noe they r playful but sometimes they don even noe tat they had get on my nerves... i really don noe wat to say... May be i had did this to them before and now they return doing it to me as revenge!!
I need time to calm myself down!! May be time can heal the wound and may be my frens don even think tat they had hurt me!!!! Watever!!!!!! Times heal everything and i will started to read or watch Twilight again to clean the wounds.......
TOMORROW I WILL BE OKAY!!!! I SWEAR!!!!! Kae leh, its okay, I am not angry of you, neither one of u had made me angry... I just anxious of wat u all said just now.... Sorry for acting like tat, and sorry ( to kaeleh) for the last words i've told u.... Gimme time and everything wil be find.... (HOPE SO)....
BYE BYE!!!!
But after today, i realise tat there have other reasons y i love books so much!!! Books not just the thing tat give us knowledge, it can give us imagination and let us enjoy the story. It is our fren no matter when we r sad or happy, it is a true fren of us.
Altough it cant talk, but it doesnt matter. As i noe, book wont betray us. it is a good and a true fren to human. And tat is y i wil read books when i am happy or i am sad.
No matter wat happens today, i din feel angry to my frens...... It is true...... I noe they r playful but sometimes they don even noe tat they had get on my nerves... i really don noe wat to say... May be i had did this to them before and now they return doing it to me as revenge!!
I need time to calm myself down!! May be time can heal the wound and may be my frens don even think tat they had hurt me!!!! Watever!!!!!! Times heal everything and i will started to read or watch Twilight again to clean the wounds.......
TOMORROW I WILL BE OKAY!!!! I SWEAR!!!!! Kae leh, its okay, I am not angry of you, neither one of u had made me angry... I just anxious of wat u all said just now.... Sorry for acting like tat, and sorry ( to kaeleh) for the last words i've told u.... Gimme time and everything wil be find.... (HOPE SO)....
BYE BYE!!!!
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