HATRED!!!!

I really didn't meant to hate you...
But you are making this harder to me.....
I did appreciate on what you have given me....
But you are the one who change my perspective towards you...
Aside of you is a good and caring person,
Who will always support or give good advice to me...
But when i grown up more,
I began to realise that you are not as simple as you are...
A part of me is trying to persuade myself that i was wrong of having those thought on you,
but why can't you make this easier for me by shutting your mouth up???
I feel that you are some kind of 'two face people'...
Or you were really another version of 'Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde'??

I tried really hard to kept myself away from hating you,
and even tried the harder not to lose temper on you,
but can't you read my facial expression?
I was perfectly sure that i am not so expert from hiding all my expressions away....
Even a new friend also seems to understand it....
But why not you???? The person who look after me since i was young???
you really getting on my nerves these days......
You know me so well that i hate being controlled by others,
and i hate to do something i didn't want to!!!
If you really need my help to do something,
Just ASK!!!!
You do have a mouth and why don't you use it at the proper time,
in the proper way????
you no need to tell me the whole grandpa or grandma story to want me to help you!!!

Don't forget that you are the one who chase our maid out,
you are the one who said you are tried for cooking for us,
you are the one who said that you are going to resign after sixty years old from the 'domestic engineer' job...
And now you are the one who said you wanted to help us again
and still you gave every comment you can get out from your mouth!!!!
FRUSTRATED!!!!

You are not the only who had temper okay,
I respect you doesn't mean you can insult me and my intelligence!!!!
I was born in a family who owns a maid in doing all those house chores,
AND YOU are the one who pulled me out from my HAPPY LAND!!!!

PLEASE!!!! STOP IT BEFORE I LOST EVERYTHING ON YOU!!!
YOU KNOW HOW I WAS WHEN I WAS ANGRY,
AND YOU KNOW WELL THAT NO ONE CAN STOP ME WHEN I HAD DECIDED SOMETHING!!!
NOT EVEN YOU, OR DADDY MOMMY CAN!!!
I SAY IT, AND I MEAN IT!!!
JUST STOP BEING CRUEL AND EVIL,
AND BETTER STOP FROM EXPERIMENTING MY TEMPER!!!!!

STOP BEFORE YOU REGRET IT!!!!
I MAY BE SCARY WHEN I WANT.....
( I won't go and stab you with a knife of course....)